Sufjan Stevens - Should have known better

I should have known better

to see what I could see

my black shroud

holding down my feelings

a pillar for my enemies

I should have wrote a letter

and grieve what I happen to grieve

my black shroud

I never trust my feelings

I waited for the remedy

when I was three, three maybe four

she left us at that video store

be my rest, be my fantasy

I'm light as a feather

I'm bright as the Oregon breeze

my black shroud

frightened by my feelings

I only want to be a relief

no, I'm not a go-getter

the demon had a spell on me

my black shroud

captain of my feelings

the only thing I want to believe

when I was three, and free to explore

I saw her face on the back of the door

be my vest, be my fantasy

I should have known better

nothing can be changed

the past is still the past

the bridge to nowhere

I should've wrote a letter

explaining what I feel, that empty feeling

don't back down, concentrate on seeing

the breakers in the bar, the neighbor's greeting

my brother had a daughter

the beauty that she brings, illumination

don't back down, there is nothing left

the breakers in the bar, no reason to live

I'm a fool in the fetter

rose of Aaron's beard, where you can reach me

don't back down: nothing can be changed

cantilever bridge, the drunken sailor

my brother had a daughter

the beauty that she brings, illumination